Fat girl problems

1am late night recording.

Not perfect but I thoroughly enjoyed singing this!

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K-pop fever has hit this house

A couple of years ago, when Korean pop was making waves in Asia, I remember thinking that this was all silly child’s play. It is just another pop culture craze that young teenagers are chasing, much like the way J-pop fever reigned during my Secondary school days. I thought to myself that I must be old enough not to be herded along into this K-pop madness, and quite frankly, I did not think any of the Korean idols were particularly good-looking or talented anyway. Marketed in groups consisting of anything between 7 to 12 members, everyone in these groups looked exactly the same as each other and they sounded the same speaking in a language that I do not understand. Worse, these K-pop groups also had similarly strange names that mostly consisted of a combination of a couple of English letters and roman numerics (e.g. SS501, 2NE1, BTOB, 2am, 2pm etc). I did not find Korean pop attractive at all and simply could not understand what the huge hype was about Rain, or … whoever the latest K-pop idol is.

But I guess things are slowly changing… for me at least. I still do not profess to be a K-pop fanatic, but I am willing to admit that my interest in Korean TV and music has gradually grown.

It all started with me watching the Korean drama “playful kiss”, and I fell in love with a very suave Kim Hyun Joong.

Kim Hyun Joong

More recently, I have been hooked on a Korean TV series “Global We Got Married” which basically pairs a Korean pop star with another celebrity from a different country. It then follows them through their (fake) dating, proposal, wedding, honeymoon and subsequent married life. I didn’t think much of the TV show initially, but gradually found myself completely and utterly hooked! In the absence of a love life at present, it felt so nice to secretly share and indulge in the sweet moments that belong to another couple.

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Watching these TV shows have led me to further investigate a number of Korean boybands, including 2pm and FT island. This song by FTisland (sung by their lead vocalist Hong Ki Lee) has proven to be a complete earworm and I can’t seem to get it out of my head. Oh, if only I knew the Korean language! I would love to learn to sing this heartbreaking song…

Exam results and Les Miserables

Firstly,

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Oh the joy! The relief! The lifting of a huge burden off my shoulders! After a long, gruelling year of revision and exams, of being shackled to my books and papers, of long days and sleepless nights, I have finally cleared the Primary FRCA and am allowed a few months of freedom!!!!!!!!!! (before the next hurdle of the final exam, that is). I had much fairer questions this time round, and nothing unexpected was examined. My examiners were also lovely, and they tried their very best to help me out when my mind completely blanked out for a few seconds. Nevertheless, I still had sweaty armpits, racing palpitations and a parched mouth throughout my exam day, and I was absolutely elated when the final bell rang and the deed was done. When I got my results yesterday, I rang home immediately and sobbed without restraint. The floodgates were opened and I just kept telling my mum “you don’t know how much hard work I’ve put in, you don’t understand how painful this year has been, you cannot comprehend the sacrifices I have made for this!” I had been on the brink of a physical, mental and emotional breakdown in the weeks leading up to my exam; to have all the pressure, the pent up frustration, and the indescribable exhaustion suddenly lifted off me was inexplicably liberating- so liberating that I did not know how else to express it but to cry.

Despite my success in the exam, I am also very wary of the people who have failed. There is a guy whom I met at an exam prep course a couple of weeks ago who sat the exact same exam as me. He was the candidate one number before me, and like me, was resitting the viva after a previous failure. He was desperate to pass the exam this time round so that he can finally spend time with his toddler at home, and start to prepare for his wedding this May. We kept each other company through the day, going off for coffee and lunch together between our exams. It was nice having someone to chat to and distract me from the stress of the day. However, after his first exam, he kept telling me how he could not see himself passing it. I tried to keep his spirits up through the day by telling him to leave that first exam behind and focus on the next exam. You can never tell how you have done so try not to discourage yourself just yet! Nevertheless, I now know that he did indeed fail his exam again. He must be gutted! I feel really sorry for him. I really hoped he had passed! I pray that the Lord will give him some rest for now, and help him through the pain of having to revise and take these dreaded exams a third time.

Exams aside, I went to the movies for the first time in almost a whole year! I went to see Les Miserables today, and it was amazing! It was everything I imagined it to be and even more! I remember seeing the musical at the West End in London and sobbing my eyes out at the end when Jean Valjean died, and true to my emotional self, I wept once again when the protagonist died. In fact, the whole movie theatre was filled with the sound of sniffles towards the end of the show. I was truly moved by the story of love, of forgiveness, of mercy, of integrity. As my heart became overwhelmed by the display of such Godly virtues in the movie, I could not help but think of my Lord Jesus Christ. Such unconditional love, self-sacrificial redemption and complete adoption is true and real and even better in real life! Jesus is God, the Lord who breathed life into the universe. Yet, He is the same Lord who forsook all He had in heaven to walk on this earth as a lowly, despised man. He came to a world that mocked Him and scoffed at Him, to die for the sinners who hate him so that they may be reconciled to God. Jesus loves us, and like the priest at the start of the movie, he offers us more treasures than the priceless silver that we try and steal from him. He is filled with justice like the character Javert, but unlike the iron-fisted policeman, Jesus forgives and forgets. Like Jean Valjean to Cosette, my Lord offers to adopt us into a new life with no more pain and sorrow. He redeems us not just with 1500 francs, but with his own precious blood, shed on a cross more than 2000 years ago. But the best thing about my Jesus is that he is alive, true, and real, not just a make believe character in an Oscar-winning film. That blows my mind, I hope it blows yours too.

Disappointed with the new song

So, I have patiently waited for a new song by my all-time favourite artist, Lee Hom, for the longest time.

He normally releases a new album every year. And when he does, I would ring home incessantly and nag at mum to procure it ASAP in Singapore so that she can pop it into the post for me. I then check my mail with anticipation everyday for the next week until Mr English Postman finally delivers the much coveted package. Whatever the day of the year that may be, I have always felt like an excited little girl on Christmas day.

The songs from his new disc would then serve to keep me entertained through long-haul flights, boring train journeys, lonely bus trips, and painful revision nights for the next 12 months. Last year, he released a compilation album with only 2 new songs to keep things fresh for me for the rest of the year. Needless to say, I have savoured every millisecond of each song a million times over, and am now craving for new tunes to feed my addiction to his music.

Finally, after what seemed like forever, Lee Hom has released a new song. One that I wish I could say I love, but unfortunately cannot. I do not mean to dismiss the fact that he has put immense effort into writing it, or even to say that it sounds bad. I just feel disappointed because I simply could not hear his soul in this new song. The music is typical of what he coins as the “chinked-out” style, but I have to admit that it does not stand out as one of his best works- it sounds so similar to a couple of his previous works that they all kind of just blend and blur into one. The lyrics make little sense to me too, and they are a jumble of words that I find difficult to even read! I sense an attempt to promote world peace by encouraging harmonious living in the song, but the link between that message and the 12 Chinese zodiacs is so tenuous that it almost qualifies for “trying too hard.” As for the music video, it is vibrant and colourful and Lee Hom looks as sauve as he always does. However, the dance choreography is childish and embarrassing, and the scene sets look unabashedly fake. I cringed as I watched it.

I hate writing bad reviews, even more so when it is on the work of someone I have loved and admired for years! I have tried to listen to the song a few more times, hoping that I will think differently the more I hear it. I keep trying to convince myself that  it cannot be that bad coming from Lee Hom. But I guess where there are hits, there must be misses. Surely work and life and music must not be always awesome, always smooth-sailing, always perfect for Lee Hom. He is a normal human being after all. I just hope that he does have more new songs to share in a new album, because this one really isn’t going to keep me going till next December.

男人的肋骨

這兩天呆在家里看了偶像劇 “醉後決定愛上你。”

戲中有句台詞讓我特別的感動,也讓我印象特別的深刻:

 

“每个老婆都是老公身上的那根肋骨。

而每個男人都在找尋自己遺失在這世界上最重要的那根肋骨,

因為它是男人心裡面最重要的那个部份。”

 

我很難想像,在這茫茫人海中會有个人在尋覓着我這根毫不起眼的肋骨。

只希望他正很努力地在找,因為我會很耐心的等待。

My heart is so jetlagged

Jet lag (Simple plan feat. Natasha Bedingfield)

What time is it where you are?
I miss you more than anything
Back at home you feel so far
Waitin’ for the phone to ring
It’s gettin’ lonely livin’ upside down
I don’t even wanna be in this town
Tryin’ to figure out the time zones makin’ me crazy

You say good morning
When it’s midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it’s driving me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged

What time is it where you are?
Five more days and I’ll be home
I keep your picture in my car
I hate the thought of you alone
I’ve been keepin’ busy all the time
Just to try to keep you off my mind
Tryin’ to figure out the time zones makin’ me crazy

You say good morning
When it’s midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it’s drivin’ me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Is so jet lagged

I miss you so bad [x5]
I wanna share your horizon
I miss you so bad
And see the same sunrising
I miss you so bad
Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me.

You say good morning
When it’s midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it’s drivin’ me mad
I miss when you say good morning
But it’s midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it’s drivin’ me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Is so jetlagged
Is so jetlagged

What a song.
All my deepest emotions sung out in a few simple words.
Have you ever said goodbye, walked away, or left behind all that you hold dear?
Have you ever had your eyes well up in tears and your heart wring in anguish at the thought of imminent departure?
Have you ever felt the heartache and the grieving that accompanies farewells?
I have.
And it seems that no matter how many times you do it, the pain never gets any more tolerable.
Just as the land and seas setting you apart never gets any smaller, saying goodbye never gets any easier.
After so many years, my heart is still jet-lagged.

Boy Meets World

Recently, I got myself hooked on an American sitcom from the 1990s.

I remember watching a couple of episodes of Boy Meets World on the “Mickey Mouse Channel” when I was about 12, thinking that the show was funny, exciting, and very relevant to my young self. I never got to watch much of it though, as the channel stopped being free-view, and my dad was reluctant to pay subscription for kids TV.

Thank God I rediscovered it on Youtube.

The sitcom essentially chronicles the life of its protagonist, Cory Matthews. As we watch episode after episode, we watch Cory grow, learn and slowly mature into a responsible young adult. It touches on issues like peer pressure, loyalty towards friends, being proud of one’s parents, communication within the family, falling in love, dealing with break-ups, pre-marital sex, marriage, and saying goodbye. Through the mistakes that Cory makes, and the lessons that Cory learns, sound moral values are also being impressed upon its young target audience. The show is not only instructive, but actually really fun to watch too. Humour has got to be one of its best weapons in keeping us hooked.

I think kids these days can really do without the trashy TV that TV stations have become so apt at churning out. I wish people made more shows like Boy Meets World now: Entertaining yet educational, capturing the hearts of both the young and old.

Boy Meets World. I loved it then, and I still love it now.

Can’t wait to get the box set of all seven seasons. I want my children to be watching quality TV like this in the future.