You can take this girl out of Singapore…

… but you cannot take Singapore out of this girl.

Just been browsing through some of my old blog entries and I didn’t have to scroll back much before coming across this post. I listened to the national anthem in the video and found my eyes brimming up uncontrollably again.

So many memories started to flood back into my mind. The happy days of childhood, the careless and carefree days of my teenage years, the depression of departure, and then multiple snapshots of my visits back home over the last decade and a half.

I am missing my home country again.

That is where my family and my best friends are. The people who have seen me at my best and my worst. The people who hold on to me and whom I hang on to. The people who have walked alongside me through days of “growing up.” ┬áThe people who are constantly asking me “when are you coming back?” The people who promise to help me resettle back to work and life in our little red dot when I am ready to be home again.

Yesterday, I found out that Gillian is all packed and her entire family will be relocating back to Singapore soon. I was surprised, since I was expecting her to stay on a little more in her new post as a paediatric consultant before heading home. Perhaps I was also a little sad, given that she has been here with me since my first day as a first year medical student (she was the most helpful 2nd year “senior” to me). Now, I feel almost a little jealous… that she will be heading back to the only place that has ever truly felt like “home” to me, to us.

It is not yet time for me to go back though. I still have to accumulate some experience as a new consultant before looking for jobs back in competitive Singapore. This time will also be useful for me to do some research on how and what needs sorting in the process of resettlement. And by the time I am ready to go back, I will be of an age to qualify for an HDB flat to call my home as well.

Singapore, I love you and miss you. Wait for me. I will be home soon.

(Another song to make the tears rock and roll….)

Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There’s a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won’t be alone, for this is where I know it’s home

 

When there are troubles to go through
We’ll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home’s about its people too
So we’ll build our dreams together
Just like we’ve done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There’ll always be Singapore

 

This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won’t be alone, for this is where I know it’s home
This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won’t be alone, for this is where I know it’s home
For this is where I know it’s home
For this is where I know I’m home