Putting God back in the centre of life

We have been going through the book of Malachi in church this month- what an amazing section of the scripture that I have never examined before! There are lots of warnings and wake up calls that can be rather painful to hear and accept, but it is overflowing with God’s instruction and truths! I will write more about what has been taught another time, but today I shall share a simple thought that I came away from church with yesterday:

Having companionship and being all loved up are all but happy side effects of being in a relationship. The true purpose of being in a relationship is to reflect God. We are to stay committed in a relationship to reflect the way God is committed to His relationship with us. We keep our promises to each other to reflect how God keeps His promises to us. We do not and must not break faith with each other because that is NOT a reflection of the way God keeps His faith towards us. Everything we do must point to God.

Everyday, I am learning that my very existence is to be a shadow of Christ on this earth, and to be a mirror to reflect who God is. I was made in the image of God for this very purpose– that others may see Him in me.

What a life-changing revelation. The focus of my life needs to be completely changed. I need to take myself off the pedestal of my heart and put God in His rightful place. Everything, down to the people I love and the relationships that I desire need to be focused on the Lord- not what I want or how it would make me feel.

God, teach me how to do this- I don’t even know where to start.

Speaking God’s truths to one another

I just spent about an hour on the phone to one of my Christian girl friends (let’s call her HS) whom I have known for years. We talked about C2 and the unhealthy relationship he is in. We talked about how we should react to it as Christians. We talked about how we should talk about it to our non-Christian friends.

But to be honest, we spent the most part of the hour speaking truths about God to each other. HS had once walked away from God, but has now come back to love Him daily. It was so great to hear her speak so passionately and with such conviction that God is true and real. I never really knew this, but talking about God to other Christian friends is such an amazing experience. Our conversation was so uplifting and immensely encouraging.

Here are some of the things we talked about:

God is good and faithful. He is mighty to save. He loves and He forgives. When His prodigal son finally comes back home, God will run to kiss him and put a ring on his finger, a robe on his back and sandals on his feet.

God is always in control of all situations in our lives. He uses all situations (even very bad ones) and all people (even someone as insignificant as me) to bring glory unto himself.

God can use my feeble words to touch people’s hearts and change people’s lives.

God’s thoughts are higher than our thoughts, and His ways higher than our ways (Isaiah 55:8-9). The bible is God’s word to us, but I do not need to feel pressured to understand everything in it to explain it to others- I never will with my humanly low level of knowledge and understanding. Yet, while God’s word can be so complex and beyond comprehension, it is simple enough even for a young child to understand and come to know Him fully through it.

God’s word is power. It speaks for itself. I do not need to try and defend it- nothing I do or say will ever defend it better than it does for itself.

“All scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work” 2 Timothy 3:16-17

Keep fighting the good fight of faith (1 Timothy 6:12), fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith (Hebrews 12:2).

God is good. God is so so good.

Single, Christian, Man

When I was younger, I used to fantasise about the kind of man I would love to get married to. I had a whole list of requirements for eligibility. Smart, funny, romantic, Christian, tall, muscular, chiselled face… the list goes on.

But what do I desire in my future partner these days? Only 3 simple prerequisites: Single, Christian, Man.

Oh how greatly the list has been simplified! Yet, it still seems so ridiculously hard to find someone who meets all 3 requirements. The single men all seem to be non-Christians. The Christian men are all in relationships or married. The single Christians I know of are mostly women. Where are all the single, Christian men?

I’ve been feeling a little needy recently. As the friends around me all seem to be starting relationships or getting married and having children, I am beginning to feel left out and lonely.

How nice it would be to have someone come and pick me up/ walk me home after a long day on call. How nice it would be to come home from work to a lovely man who has just made my dinner. How nice it would be to have a companion during mealtimes or to go out to the movies with. How nice it would be to have someone fuss over me when I am feeling under the weather. How nice it would be to have a comforting shoulder to cry on. How nice it would be to have a man I love in my life.

God made mankind to be relational creatures, reflecting the way the holy trinity are in a perfect relationship with one another. As a human, I have been hard-wired to desire intimacy and relationship. Nevertheless, I need to be reminded daily that I should be desiring a relationship with God, not man. God alone is good enough for me. God’s love truly satisfies. God’s love will never hurt me, it will never let me down.

I am acutely aware that feeling in need of affection puts me in a relatively dangerous place when it comes to temptation. What if a gorgeous, romantic and considerate non-Christian man comes along? I know how I should choose, yet I am not confident that I can bring myself to make the correct choice. It would be so immensely difficult to say no. So dear Lord, I pray “lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.” (Matthew 6:13)

God is good enough for me.


I really don’t feel like studying tonight.

I have been procrastinating since yesterday afternoon!

There is a lot to cover before the exams, and I should be alot more motivated than this!

But I really can’t bring myself to face the books…

What should I do?


Better is one day in your courts, then thousands elsewhere

Remember I mentioned about a young girl R2, who suffers from Leukaemia?

She became very poorly on the 4th of January. That day, she had a prolonged seizure which warranted intubation and ventilation on the ITU. Whilst on the ITU, she began to suffer from a persistent GI bleed with haematemesis, likely secondary to her chemotherapy induced mucositis and thrombocytopenia from bone marrow suppression. She received unit after unit of blood and dose after dose of platelets, up to a point when she was on the verge of being fluid overloaded. At that time, she also continued to show signs of neutropenic sepsis which warranted aggressive antimicrobial therapy. She was miserable, in pain and remained mostly uncomfortable even with a morphine syringe driver. She really suffered.

During this time, R2 had a bone marrow biopsy and a lumbar puncture. We all hoped and prayed that her leukaemia would have come under control with the last month of aggressive chemotherapy. Unfortunately, that was not the case. Her leukaemia was still very much active. There was now nothing else that the doctors could do for her- the only plan left was palliation.

Naturally, R2’s family were devastated and in anguish. Their hearts were heavy and sad. They now kept vigil by R2’s side. Both parents (especially mum) barely slept and they were all exhausted. Despite all this, they continued to witness for the Lord through their suffering. Their trust, faith and hope in the Lord really touched me.

Little R2’s dad tweeted this on his twitter account:

“Bone marrow result came. Leukemia still active. Nothing more can be done, humanly speaking. Heavy hearts. Comforted to know that just one day in the courts of God is better than a thousand days elsewhere.”

Later, R2’s dad wrote about his attempt to talk to R2’s older sister Emily (4 years old) about R2’s imminent death.

On the way to hospital in the car with Emily, praying that God would help me with “the chat”). 

Me: So Emily…you know that R2 is very poorly?

Emily: Yes. 

Me: Well, do you know that sometimes, when people are really really poorly, they don’t get better?

Emily: Yes they do! They get new bodies in heaven that don’t get sick, and there’s no more crying there. 

I don’t think there’ll ever be a sermon on Revelation 21 that I’ll treasure more than this one.

I cried. How amazing is the faith and understanding of this child! I felt so thankful and touched that God’s good news reaches even unto the little children. At this time of crisis, it is so awesome that such a young child should be able to offer comfort to her own parents with the truths and promises from God. The God we serve is truly mighty to save!

17/01/12: Little R2 died.

We are all sad. But in a way, I guess we are all thankful. Thankful that God has taken R2 back to Him, thankful that the Lord has removed her from her broken earthly body, thankful that Christ has spared her from more suffering. Thankful even more still, for the witness that R2 and her family have borne for the Lord in their suffering. Thankful, that the broken world we now live in will one day be no more, and we will enjoy a brand new creation with the Lord our living God.

“Then I saw ‘a new heaven and a new earth,’ for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jeruselem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, ‘Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death, or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.’ He who was seated on the throne said, ‘I am making everything new!’ Then he said ‘write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.’ He said to me: ‘It is done. I am the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I will give water without cost from the spring of the water of life. Those who are victorious will inherit all this, and I will be their God and they will be my children.'” Revelation 21:1-7 

Rest in peace little R2. Enjoy your new pain-free body in heaven, where you are no longer attached to tubes and drips or drains. I pray that the angels will play with you and keep you company, making you laugh and smile the way you were never able to on this earth. Run along and sit at the feet of your mighty creator, pray to him that he will mercifully offer comfort to all the people you have left behind on this earth.








想念我們在一起查經,禱告,唱詩 ,團契。




我一直都認為新加坡的土地太渺小, 社會太拘束。認為新加坡人過於被動而太沒有想法。認為他們因為養尊處優而變得傲慢並自以為了不起。我認為一直呆在家就會變成个不識人間煙火的井底之蛙。所以,一定要到外走走,見見市面,開礦視野,充實人生。



沒有家人在身旁與我歡喜,陪我擔憂,為我加油打氣, 讓我真的倦了。



偷偷的,我不小心把自己最寶貝的回憶都掏了出來- 為這顆充滿思念的心果腹。

Beautiful Asian Women

Recently, I have been thinking about how sombre my last couple of posts have been. I wanted to liven this blog space up a little and  considered what I could write about. As I wondered through cyberspace checking out the blogs and videos of people I find interesting and beautiful, it finally dawned on me that I could write about the people in this world that I find attractive. I am going to kick this topic off with: Beautiful Asian Women.

Now, don’t get me wrong as I am not attracted to women whatsoever. As with many other women out there, I just like to look at pretty things and pretty people. Being a girl has made me particularly harsh when judging other women’s exterior charm, so I want to introduce you to the ladies who have managed to silence the critic in me with their ravishing beauty.

First up, Arden Cho.

I first noticed this gorgeous Korean-American beauty when watching Wong Fu Productions’ “Asians of Secret Stuff.” Arden is a “beautiful girl-next door,” complete with a porcelain face and alluring smile. She has a sing-song voice, and always comes across as gentle and kind. I was looking through her list of talents on her wikipedia page, and true to most Asians, she is mutitalented. She is a thespian, a dancer, a gymnast, a cheerleader, a pianist, a celloist, a beauty queen, a singer, and she even practices Tae Kwan Do! She is my age, yet she puts me to shame with all her acheivements. What makes me the most jealous though, is the fact that she makes a living out of acting (and she’s so good at it!)– something that I love love love so much.

Number 2: 鬼鬼

Young, vibrant, fun-loving, gregarious. When I first saw her on 我愛黑澀會, I thought she was ignorant and annoying. But over the years, I think she has really blossomed into a lovely young lady. Great smile, good skin, gorgeous legs.

3rd: 隋棠

One of Taiwan’s top models. With a body like hers, how can one deny the fact that she IS opthalmic candy? Her straight and never-ending pins are absolutely to-die-for. She is elegant, poised, and the epitome of sexy.

4th: 張鈞甯

Janine Zhang first came to fame with her performance in the drama series 白色巨塔,where she played an anaesthetist with numerous love interests. As far as I can remember, she is the first lady that I thought to be truly beautiful. She doesn’t put her beauty out on display ostentatiously, but I think it is her careful, considered ways that have really drawn me towards her. She is a beauty with brains too- she holds both a degree and a masters degree in law, awarded by 2 of Taiwan’s most prestigious Universities.

Number 5: 劉容嘉

容嘉 isn’t your typical ravishing beauty, but she really inspires me with her amazing fashion sense. She dresses simply, but always manages to stand out from the crowd with her choices. She is funny and real, perhaps even a little strange (she practices Tai Chi), but I think that really draws people to her.

Last but not least, a recent favourite: 陳妍希

Michelle recently shot to fame with her stunning performance in the Taiwanese movie: You are the apple of my eye (那些年,我們一起追的女孩). Who knew that a girl could look so delightful with her hair tied back in a ponytail? She has a smile of an angel (complete with dimples and all), and is 落落大方 in her manner. What’s there not to like?


So, that concludes my post on good-looking Asian women. This list is by no means exhaustive, and I am sure there are many more gems out there waiting to be discovered, polished, and put on lists such as this.

But remember: “Favour is deceitful and beauty is vain; but a woman who feareth the Lord, she shall be praised!” Proverbs 31:30

I’ll have a think and generate a list of oh-so-delicious individuals with the XY chromosome for a future post. Until then, farewell!

p.s. I do not own any of the pictures. They were generated from a random search on google images.



Beyond belief

One of the student ODPs said to me yesterday that she would request to be anaesthetised by me should she ever need an operation.

Flattered, and exceedingly so.

Brand new start

Happy New Year!

Goodbye forever 2011. What a horrible year you have been. The world has been a mess, the people around me have been a mess, and I haven’t had it any better myself either. I hope that the new year will bring with it lots of positive change. May the hurting be comforted, the ill be healed, and the lost be found.

I ushered in 2012 without any partying or countdown- I was on the phone to dear B in Australia! And I spent most of New Year’s day today working- it was rather busy in theatres! Now, I am just glad to be back in the comfort of my own apartment, having dinner and drinking schloer…

*lifts up glass of schloer* Here’s to an awesome 2012!